Fragile

A colleague told me about her previous relationship 3 years ago yesterday while we were on our way home. Her then boyfriend aka husband-to-be broke off with her 2 weeks before their wedding, reason being he was not ready. The worse thing was, he broke off with her via sms, while he was in Thailand for an overseas assignment. He came back, packed his clothes from my colleague’s house and off he went, without giving her any other explanations. She has to notify her relatives on the cancellation. Even though she spoke very calmly, I can’t help but to feel sorry for her.

I saw her eyes turning red and tears flowing in her eyes. I can feel her pain. Notwithstanding that 3 years has passed, I know she has not let go of this relationship, partly because there was this unopened lock in her heart. No explanation, no reason. I feel sad for her. I know from others that she has a failed relationship, but only yesterday did I know the whole story from the horse’s mouth.

Relationship is very fragile sometime. You can feel especially fortunate and blissful now, but you can feel totally opposite the next minute or so. Sigh.

Perhaps she should throw away the wedding band, and open her heart again.

I wish she will find her true love soon.

Lost

I dislike the feeling of being lost, be it lost with direction or work. I want to feel certain in the things I do. I want to know what exactly I am going or do. The feeling of being lost makes me feel lousy and nervous.

I understand that when it comes to work, especially newbies like me, it is very common to be a blur sotong in the start, especially how the company works. But, since I am in charge of a few big projects, I don’t want to be a sotong, yet I cant do much to feel clear. Worse still, your boss somehow has the impression that you have joined the company for many years and should know the company’s operation in and out. =_=iii Sigh

Even my blog entry feels so lost – what am I typing?

你会不会

梁静茹《你会不会》

房间是你的气息你还没醒
静静的偷挨着你 你伸手握我手心
这是真的 还是种梦境
没捧在手心还是不确定
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情 直到我遇见你
这不是运气 是种默契 却让我恐惧
OH 你会不会美丽往往都易碎对不对
遗憾变满意 满意变泪滴
泪滴变钻石 我珍惜被你珍惜
爱是水晶 好透明又怕被跌碎的心
偷偷珍惜 屏住呼吸
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情 直到我遇见你
这不是运气 是种默契却让我恐惧
OH 你会不会 热情往往会减退 对不对
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情不在患得患失
这不是运气 是种笃定 更怕会失去
OH 你会不会 真心最后会撤退 会不会

Nightmare

Had a terrible nightmare yesterday night. Dreamt that Mr Lim was secretly smoking at night (due to accumulated work stress), leaving only 4 cigarettes in the box. Was too shock that I woke up and at the same time woke Mr Lim up to tell him this. Luckily he reassured me in a half-asleep mode that he will never go into smoking and dream is the opposite of reality.

I wonder whether I was the one having work stress or him, or even the both of us.

Sigh