I am who I am

Counting down to my last day with Company M. 1 week plus and I will be officially saying good bye to the Company and the fellow nice colleagues. Am I prepared for the next challenge? – I don’t know. Am I prepared to be “fighting” on par with that who- think-she-is-pretty person? – I don’t know. I am not someone who likes to vie for this and that and especially when come to work, I just want to make sure I give it all my best. I don’t know and don’t like any underhand means, especially trying to get into good books of the bosses and even the male colleagues. I am not like her.

True, to the male species, she might look pretty, but cant they see what is beneath her make up? – “fakishness”, “insincerity”? Can’t they see that she is only on good terms with the guys and not the gals? Cant they see her big wedding ring (ok, most of the time the ring is not on her fingers)? I might sound jealous, but in fact, I am not. I just cannot understand why there are some people around? Why treat the rest of the women as her competitors and only to befriend those that she thinks they pose no threats? Sigh – my dad and Mr Lim said I am going to have a hard time working together with her, especially we are of the same rank.

Come to think, they are right..while I was with Company K, also the same position as her, she never once talked to me. The most she acknowledged that I was one of her colleagues. I can get along well with all the colleagues, be it male or female, except her. Don’t be mistaken, we never quarreled or fought, but we never talked. *ponder* I did try to be friendly towards her, but my good intention was never appreciated.

Anyway, I don’t care – I am who I am, and I don’t need to purposely get into good book of the boss. I just need to treat myself and the others nicely and respectfully. And to put in my very best in whatever I do.

I can do it!